It is close to 3AM and my brain has begun to work.
What is it about the darkness and silence and the need to sleep that generates a thought so provoking I am left wide awake.
I suppose life would be so much easier if I could live through the night and sleep during the day. It would minimise human contact and suit my brain’s way of functioning.
Sadly, I have a mother who will wake me up at the times I am still engrossed in the most vivid dreams.
I like loneliness now. It is a comforting place that I seek. What was once a chilling shadow has now become a reliable companion - one I now hope to continue with for the rest of my life.
I enjoy this solitude. It is much more better than constant interactions with beings I have to try too hard for.
It’s actually so funny how much adults’ actions impact the younger generation yet, they think we influence each other.
I cannot deal with it.
Amor Mio - Lee Hyori
(Source: aloneincrimson)
Plot:
Setting: North Carthage, Missouri
On the day of Nick’s fifth wedding anniversary, his wife, Amy, disappears from their home. Initially, his innocence is certain and the support he receives is immense. Then Amy’s unknown best-friend points at Nick…
You either make it or you don’t.
Not because of how lucky you are but by how much effort you put in in order to “make it”. There’s no point in lazing around and saying that you want this and that. If there’s no action there is no result. It’s as simple as that.
Starting is the hardest part. But there’s no finish line if you don’t get to the beginning point. Start. For the moment you realise that yes, you have accomplished something (however big or small). That moment where you finally know that there is a future, a stable future, and you will enjoy living in it.
You can always mope around and complain about how hard everything is. You can envy the person next to you for earning the materialistic things everyone wants and the happiness you think you deserve. In the end though, where will you find yourself? Only at the starting point while others have long passed the final mark and have won triumphantly.
So start. And continue. Until the end.
The Fault in Our Stars - John Green
(via kerryt)
I’m just drifting along. Nothing solid to hold onto and nowhere to go. It is a constant feeling now. Everyday I am at lost at what to do and when I try to envision what I will do in the next five years, it is just a blur.
Help me.
I’ve grown so unattached from people like I could literally move across the country tomorrow and not give a shit about leaving anyone except for like 2 people
(Source: somedahy)
I feel as though I am accomplishing nothing. That I will accomplishing nothing. I just can’t help but feel all muddled up and uncertain about the future. This scary, distant - but not that distant - time in which people expect success, happiness and more than often, a happily ever after they realise never exists.
